I looked up actresses and parts that I could be like, and looked up other parts that the actresses and similar actresses played. I came up with 10 plays that we had at the library. Jeffrey let me borrow some of his, but since I already had so many I only borrowed two: The Heiress and the original play Spring Awakening. I've only read one of the plays so far, since the parentals came down yesterday to hang out and I was looking through my Complete Works for some good Shakespeare monologues(9 of those already).

The play I read was called "Time Remembered" by Jean Anouilh, was an abstract play. If you took Alice in Wonderland and Cinderella, and mixed them together, then you'd get this play. It was a good play, mostly because it was so different. It was written around 1955. It reminded me of "A Dream Play" by August Strindburg, but much much more bearable! I found two abstract monologues from it, short, probably better for musical theatre packages because they're so short.

Anyway, I'm going to continue to slog-along,

Later!

Emmy

So I didn't get bored until the last week and a half of break, which is good. I got my birthday presents in the mail yesterday, so I watched all of the Christy movies yesterday. I decided to re-read all of Tamora Pierce's Tortall books that I own, one of which I only ever skimmed before. I can't wait for the next book to come out in April! I, also, re-read all of the Francesca Cahill novels, I really wish the author would write the last book and be done with it, but her publishers won't let her. She hasn't written a book in four years for that series, and there's only one more left to write.

I'm excited but not excited about going back to school Friday. I'm going to miss my Rory-dog terribly! I'm anxious about the auditions when we get back on Friday, too. I debating about just using my sixteen bar cut or making a 32 bar cut of my song for the audition. I wish that there were other female parts to read besides the mother, just be truthful and go with it is my going to be my motto for that.

I have one more shirt to make and I have to hem the new pants I bought a week ago (b/c of course they're too long). I'm also touching up my highlights tonight. We're going over to my Aunt's tonight to celebrate my birthday early, since it's on Friday. I can't believe I'm going to be 22, it's so old! I've pretty much decided that the fall after I graduate I want to go to graduate school for acting, since musical theatre will probably not be my main swing. I wish I'd known that before, so maybe I could've gotten the professional acting training, too, but I didn't. I learned a lot from Greg in Acting Styles and that will have to be the last of all the acting classes I'll have at ECU. I'm still taking two Natalie classes next semester where I'll get to spread my wings some more. Natalie told me that she thinks it will really help me.

Anyway, that's all!

Much love!

Emmy

So...It wasn't the best Thanksgiving break in the world, mostly due to the fact that it was extremely short. i was forced to come back Friday b/c of a football game. i feel like I was jipped in the Thanksgiving meal department, b/c I didn't get to have left over night! :( Poo! I wanted more of that stuffing! Jeez. I did manage to start and finish the Twilight books in a weeks time with school and what not going on, yay! I was in such a reading mood that I read another book, which I had bought over the summer, on Saturday all day and early this morning. It was good!! I went looking for the sequel, but unfortunately it's not coming out until April! boo!!! She had the other book published a couple years ago. Tamora, you are letting us down! Jeez. I preordered online, so hopefully, I will maybe get it a little early or right on time!! I was depressed when I learned that I had nothing else to read, so I practiced instead (probably a little too much) and then went over and tutored Whitney and Chelsea.

I've decided to wear my mom's old formal dress for the Winter Formal. It looks very classic, but then it's vintage so I guess it would. I feel like Audrey Hepburn in it!

Only 3 more days of class!! YAY!!!

Anyway, I think that's all I have to say!

Later!

Emmy

I have to write a 250 word paper about the character of Lady MacBeth and my take on her, and it needs to be done in an hour (I won't have time later today).

I got "The Glorious Ones" Vocal Selections, and I LOVE the song that the character I can play sings! I love the music in the rest of it, too! It's really great music!

My performance yesterday was really good! I felt like I did a good job! The audience seemed to really like me, I got lots of applause at the end of my death scene and lots of laughter throughout! It was fun! Everyone else felt that it didn't go very well, which brough down my happiness at doing so well. Boo. I hope tonight they get better responses so that they can be happy too!

Anyway, I guess I should go write this paper!

Much love!!

Emmy

The show is going pretty well, he's still changing and adding things, but it's all cool. He seems to be getting a little more anxious the closer opening gets. I think it will be a good show, though.

I finished the major pieces of my costume, now I'm just adding lace and hemming. It's going to look fabulous!!! I'm excited!! I bought a push up bra (without gel) today, since now it seems my character does need to have a bust, of sorts. I think the push up bra, plus the tightness of the corset/bodice top, will acheive that! This non-gel push up bra seems to fit better than the gel one, too.

I have a paper that I HAVE to write today, b/c I'm spending most of tomorrow helping Chelsea with stuff, but I just don't want to. I'm a very last minute masterpiece paper writer. I have to be pushed to complete it. Maybe that's why I write my stories better when they're due by a certain date, hmmmm...(not that I've had time to work on them since getting into the theatre program). The thing that sucks right now, is that I don't know what I want to write about, just that I want to write about King Lear. I'll figure it out, I know I will, it's just a matter of forcing myself to come up with something.

What do I really want to do right now? Take a nap.

Later!

Emmy

P.S. I changed my solo for Friday, again, now I'm singing "I Ain't Down Yet".

So I fell sick on Sunday, but I've been taking mucinex and it seems to be getting better.

Rehearsal went well last night, even with me not being able to go 100 percent.

I am mad at myself for forgetting to take my phone of silent last night, causing my to miss ballet this morning, grrrrr..... jeez! that's why I set two alarms!!


Emmy

Today wasn't the best of days. I'm blaming it on the frigid, biting wind, and the cold air. I didn't do as well as I would have liked on my coaching for my Shakespeare scene today, b/c I let myself get in that self-concious place (it was mainly about ariticulation and not slurring the words). I let it happen though, that was the only thing he really criticised me about though, which is good.

I finished most of the bodice and cut out the skirt that attaches to the bodice, while doing that I didn't make sure that I'd have enough fabric for the sleeves so I'll have to patch those together. Jefferey wasn't worried, though, about it and told me not to worry about it. I'm sure it will still look fabulous!!

Getting ready for Bat Boy auditions already! I'm excited about that show!! I hope I get in!!! I'm going for either Shelley or Ruthie!! Let's hope I get one of them!!!

That's about it!

Emmy

I always seem to be sleepy these days. I love naps! I only get to take them maybe once a week. I was looking forward to just staying in all day Saturday, but now I have a Leadership Carousel and interview to go to all day. It's an honour and I appreciate it, but I really wish I could have at least a little bit of a lazy Saturday. Oh, well, I'll go and be cheerful.

The play seems to be going well. I don't rehearse my scene again until Thursday probably, but I do have to go tonight to do the Prologue.

Anyway, I think that's all I have to say,

Later!

Emmy

I had my first rehearsal on my scene, and it was extremely stressful and disheartening. I talked to Chelsea this morning about it, and apparently she went through a similar thing last year, so she helped me with it quite a bit. I'm going early to work on it some more in one of the little studios. I don't have to be there until 8pm. I'll have an hour and half to work on it.

I got better in Tap, I'm just going to continue doing the extra practice. I was the only one to know the whole dance from last time, which was pretty cool! She told me twice that I did really well this class!!! YAY!!

I turned in my application for a national honors leadership fraternity, which a professor apparently nominated me for. We'll see what happens.

Anyway, I'm off!

Later!!!

Emmy

If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!

Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal.
01) Are you currently in a serious relationship? nope
02) What was your dream growing up? I want to be a famous actress.
03) What talent do you wish you had? i wish things came to me a little easier, dance and singing-wise. i'm getting better, but it would be nice if I could fix things quickly and move on.
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be? probably something with Rum in it, Rum drinks are my favorite.
05) Favorite vegetable? onions! i love onions!!
06) What was the last book you read? Anne of Ingleside(or The Imaginary Invalid if you count plays as books)
07) What zodiac sign are you? Capricorn
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. just one in each ear
09) Worst Habit? i'd have to go with what morgan said, worrying.
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? yes, I miss you!! I would even if I didn't miss you, but I do!
11) What is your favorite sport? I liked watching vollyball on the Olympics, but I don't know if it's my favorite or not. I'm not big into sports.
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude? depends on what's going on.
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? i'd probably freak a little. I'm not a big fan of close spaces, plus elevators make me think of the Tower of Terror (i didn't like that ride).
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? when Grandma and Jasmine died, I miss them still.
15) Tell me one weird fact about you. I'm a little weird anyway. When I'm really happy, I'm EXTREMELY HAPPY AND PEPPY!!
16) Do you have any pets? Rory-dog!
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? I would love it!!!! I miss you a lot!!!!
18) What was your first impression of me? you seemed so much older than me, and then I got to know you and you kind of zoomed down to my level. I was a wide-eyed freshman.
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? i don't really know. i guess scary, if I encountered one on the street. From a distance they're ok.
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? I'd like to be a little bigger (by maybe just 3/4 of an inch), so I could be taller than my mom.
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? probably both, it depends on the situation.
22) What color eyes do you have? blue
23) Ever been arrested? nope
24) Bottle or can soda? can
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? pay off my college tuition for undergraduate, save enough for graduate school later, and use some to buy a nice enough house to live in next year during school.
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at? Chelsea's house.
28) Do you believe in ghosts? yeah, I think I do. I love Ghost Hunters and Most Haunted!
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? sleep, read, write(haven't had anytime to do that since freshman year), sing, and organize(i love to organize).
30) Do you swear a lot? not a ton.
31) Biggest pet peeve? when people leave food crumbs and stickies on my coffee table :( I hate stickies!
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? industrious, stressed, and occasionally exhausted.
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? yes
34) Favourite and least favourite food? favorite would be flank steak with greenbeans and squash(i know that's 2, but they go together), least favorite would be deli sandwiches (any kind of cold main dish really, but especially deli sandwiches).
35) Do you believe in God? yeah
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? This is a rather silly question.

MISS YOU MORGAN!!! SO EXCITED THAT YOU'RE COMING TO SEE MY SHOW AND HANG OUT!!!! MUCH LOVE!!!!!

Emmy

I love "Of Thee I Sing"!!! It's a great show! Everyone's doing a fabulous job!!
I love doing hair for it, too!! I'm glad that Jeffrey trusts me to do it right and well! I'm also doing wigs now too, styling them.

Later!

Emmy

You know when you have good days and bad days? Well, I haven't had one single day this week that I could classify as either, due to the fact that both the good and the bad at extreme levels occured daily.

Good: I got a 100 on my Shakespeare Tragedies monologue. Bad: I was exhausted and tired of crew and yet still had to stay up late after the crew to do homework.

Good: Greg liked my monologue and said I'd really improved and was doing really well this semester. Bad: I'm extremely tired, and had a little car accident that wasn't really bad at all, but awful to deal with. Neither car was hurt, just scratched a little, which we fixed mostly ourselves after the fact.

These are just example of my week, and these are the most extreme examples.

I found a copy of "Honey Bun" (I've decided to sing it for my Rhonda class rather than "Follow Your Heart" (I'm using that as a technique piece for right now) that is actually in the right key and will allow me to belt the whole thing, after I get some rest tonight and this weekend.

Jefferey is going to let me help him style the hair for OTIS! It will be a big time commitment, but I'm going to do it!! I'm free after I do the hair, so it's really only an hour or two in the early evening.

Anyway, that's all I have to report, except for the fact that I REALLY miss my family and my dog!!!!! It's an extreme ache inside of me!!! I want to go home!!! I want to sew on MY sewing machine!! I want to kiss my puppy!!! I want my mom to give me a hug(I really needed one from her this week)!!!!!! I get to see them next weekend, but we're traveling to VA to see my Cousin, her kids, her husband, my uncle, and Granddaddy, so it won't be exactly the same and it will be a little tiring. I am glad i'll get to see them, though. It looks like I'll get to go home for Fall Break if I know my stuff for "Imaginary", so I'm going to make sure I know it!!!

Anyway, much love!! I hope your week's been less wishy-washy than mine!

Emmy

I'm getting WAY better vocally! I might even be considered good some day!!! I recorded myself practicing my music for later this semester, and I'm definately getting better!!! I don't cringe when I listen to a recording of me singing anymore, I still hear things that need to be fixed, but I'm getting there! I just have to continue to push forward toward success. I think I'm going to ask Michael to let me sing "I Could've Gone To Nashville" for the Gala, b/c it's an awesome song that I know I can do well! I hope he'll say "yes"!!! The one that I sound the best on so far is "Think of Meryl Streep", which is a pop song. There a couple little glitches still, but I'm sure that Lisa will be able to help me smooth them out!!! EXCITEMENT!!!! I want to work on "The Beauty Is" with Lisa, too, b/c my upper head voice is one of my major weaknesses.

I found a song that I'd like to sing in practicum next semester, "I Want to Go to Hollywood" from Grand Hotel! It's awesome!! I got a recording of Sutton Foster singing, and she's amazing!

Anyway, lots of stuff to do today, studying lighting, reading Act II of Hamlet, practicing, and memorizing my monologue for Acting Styles! I better get to it!!

Later!

Emmy

Today, I had finally come to terms with the fact that I probably wasn't going to be kept on to direct "Anne of Green Gables" b/c I got in the show. My nap was interrupted this afternoon by a phone call, Andrea called to tell me they'd still let me do it, but just pay me 400 instead of 500. At first I said, "yes", and then when she told me about the money it made me think about how I always jump into things without thinking about them first, which is what I had been doing. I realized that I need to think about it, and i told her so.

Well, I thought about it, I looked at my schedule and I thought about it. I realized that I would love to do it if I had nothing else (show-wise)going on, but I do. I had a feeling that it would be extremely stressful, especially for a girl who likes to get to rehearsal and meetings 15 to 30 minutes early. I would be struggling to do that if I directed "Anne". I want to be able to put my all into everything I do, and it would just be impossible to put my all into my papers, my monologue, my scenes, and "Imaginary Invalid" while also trying to put my all into "Anne". It isn't fair to them for me to be there, but not really be there. I've found someone who might be willing to take my spot in directing for "Anne" she told me she'd let me know Monday. I think she'd be a great choice, and I told her I'd help her as much as I could in the beginning and give her all my notes and stuff. I'm going to call Andrea tomorrow and let her know my idea and give her my decision. It makes me both sad and relieved to come to this decision. I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach when I thought about trying to direct "Anne" and be in "Imaginary Invalid". School comes first, and I love my part and the cast for "Imaginary". I wouldn't give it up for anything.

Anyway, that's all i have to say on the subject and after tomorrow, I think it will be pretty much closed.

Also, I miss Rory-dog!!! I need my poodle!!!!!

Later!

Emmy

I had callbacks today for "The Imaginary Invalid" and it was only me and this other girl called back for the little girl. I knew that I had this character down pat and that I had set my choices perfectly, I was just going in there hoping he'd like my choices and pick me! And he did!!! I was a little worried that if he chose Yesenia for my character's older sister he'd chose the other girl b/c she's darker in her coloring... but he didn't!! He didn't say anything to me, he didn't give me any adjustments, after my second read (we both read with both of the possible fathers) he told me and Wes that "that was a very good scene. Thank you guys"! I hoped that that meant that I did what he wanted!! And it did!!! I'm glad that I was so prepared and that I talked to Chelsea and Ali about it the day before, we worked on our sides together the day before when we found out we were called back. I just went for it! I love the part and I'm SO glad I get to do it, and with Greg J., too! I love working with him!! Although, I liked reading with Wes, too. I've worked with Greg J. before in "An Ideal Husband" and I like how we play well off of each other! I'm SO glad I get to play a comic little girl while I'm here!!!

I don't know what this is going to mean for "Anne", I hope she'll keep me on as director, and i think she will in some capacity. I just don't know precisely what.
I'm going to email her tomorrow about it.

I'm excited about my singing, too! I'm getting REALLY good now!!! I'm just going to keep on plugging away at it! I know I'll get there!

Anyway, I should go to bed since I have an 8am ballet class!!!

YAY!!!

Emmy

I got my paper back yesterday, the one I was really worried about, and I got a 94 on it!!! JEEZ!! All that worrying and drama about it and i got a stinkin' 94!! I'm happy about it. I know it's not my best work too, and that I was rushed writing it, so next time I'll (hopefully) do even better!

I did well on Tuesday for my scene, and I did even better today! I just need to remember my doing and try not to shift my weight around and remain planted. I did take his adjustments and I fixed the majority of it, except for the shifting. So shifting and doing!! I'm going to get them fixed for next time! I'm glad that I'm doing well and that he's not annoyed with me or anything. I want to do well. I would like to be in his show this semester if I can manage it, as the little girl. More people than I thought want that part. I'm just going to do my best though, and try not to worry about them. We'll see what happens.

I'm going to go see the stage today for "Anne", so I'm excited about that. It should be pretty cool! It will give me the chance to see how I can block it.

I'm improving vocally with my singing already, even though I was sick last week. I'm just going to continue to work to get better. I will get better!! I'm actually starting to sound good in my head voice!!! I'm thinking that my next two songs for presentations after "Follow Your Heart" are going to be "I Could've Gone to Nashville" & "Think of Meryl Streep."

The plan for tonight is to come back and fix dinner, go to crew, read "The Imaginary Invalid" again, and go to bed!

Anyway, I think that's all I have to report!

So I somehow caught a chest cold, b/c it's definately not in my nose, but in my throat and chest. I'm taking mucinex and zicam, so I think it will get better soon!

I had my first Rhonda lesson, and I sang (Ali suggested it) "Follow Your Heart" and a cut of "I'd Rather Be Blue". I think I'm going to get the hang of this soprano thing. i love my new recording device, it's SO cool! So much better than a tape player!

I have good friends and good professors that care about me! I'm feeling pretty good!


Love!

Emmy

IMPOSSIBLE DREAM from MAN OF LAMANCHA

"To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go;
To right the unrightable wrong.

To love, pure and chaste, from afar,
To try, when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star!

This is my Quest to follow that star,
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far,
To fight for the right
Without question or pause,
To be willing to march into hell
For a heavenly cause!

And I know, if I'll only be true
To this glorious Quest,
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest.

And the world will be better for this,
That one man, scorned and covered with scars,
Still strove, with his last ounce of courage,
To reach the unreachable stars!"

I didn't get called back, and normally that wouldn't be too bad with a musical of this size, but they also called back the ensemble. I'm thinking that I'm not going to get into this show. I want to be in a musical SO bad!

I was trying not to cry, but that didn't happen. I saw Natalie as soon as I got to school this morning in front of the call back list. She was so nice and sweet. She's upset and sad that i didn't get called back. She told me that it was my type, the type they have me as here, little girl, and there are no little girls in this show. She told me that I did a good job at the audition, and that when I get out of here I'll probably always have work and work more than most of those people who got called back.

Ali came in all compassionate too, and that made me cry again. She's so sweet. She's going to help me get better with my soprano and nerves. She told me that I'm one of the most professional people here in this department, I've always got my stuff together and i'm always prepared.

It's not fair that they can't see the adult type in me, because I can do it!

Anyway, I'm going to cry it out of my system,

Emmy

yeah, so I changed my song again and the way i'm singing. He wants legit sound and soprano, so I'm singing "Nice Work if You Can Get It" that way. I hope I do okay. The audition is today and I made that decision a couple of hours ago.

Classes went okay. Shakespeare looks like its going to be a lot of work, there are scene performances and we have to do 2 as well as 2 recitations of some speeches. The scenes take out of class rehearsal time and he wants them to be stellar, and I don't have time due to crew and "Anne of Green Gables." I'll pull through, I know, but I stress about it anyway. I, also, have a three page paper due next class period. Perfect. We have three papers, and it's not even a Writing intensive course. I just know I don't have much time, and that's why I'm complaining about it.

Anyway, off to fret about the upcoming audition some more,

Emmy